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Starboy

i met you when the times were vague hustle & chaos everywhere i saw your face amidst the crowd shining brightly like a silver beam our eyes never met each other's but deep down we both enjoyed the spell just listening to your warm breath made me feel safe & home i tried million times to see the stars in your eyes only to see if those stars matched with mine but something stopped them from colliding with each other, to create a beautiful colossal cloud it was time it is always the time that has stopped us, from reaching the ultimate level of euphoria maybe someday we shall win the conflict with time, to create infinite clouds of happiness with our stars <3

Toxic Femininity

You probably must’ve heard this term only a couple of times, because media doesn’t talk much about this subject. The traits of this toxicity are so normalized that we fail to realize its presence around us & how it affects our thought process about ourselves. For generations, women have been a victim of patriarchy & one of the horrendous by-product of it is Toxic Femininity. It is when someone ignores one’s own comfortability with the situation just to work on fulfilling the demands of others. Doing so, a person can experience exhaustion, mental tiredness, anxiety, numbness, & various self-sabotaging feelings that are sometimes considered as “normal” symptoms of stress. But we never question the deep, underlying reason behind these emotions & feelings. There can be plenty & this is one of them. I am sure most of the women out there have experienced toxic femininity & the examples shock me to the core. Because it is done by women, against other women!!!! Women ar...

Skyou

every time i look up at the clear pink sky it reminds me of your flushed cheeks you give me faith just like a sunbeam amidst the crystal sky your embrace is so smooth & placid it reminds me of the calmness i used to get  when I was on my dam's lap people aspire to touch the rosy sky but I already know what it feels like since I've caressed your feather-like skin only few deserve to feel your sheen you're so much like the pink sky that it scares me sometimes that i will lose you just like the birds lose the pink fluffy clouds right before the monstrous storm but maybe someday when the sadness ends when the pink clouds comeback to their birds you will comeback to me with your divine rosé smile <3

The 19th Loft

This pandemic took a major toll on our financial, emotional & physical aspects of our lives. It was something that none of us expected & for someone who likes to plan out her whole year beforehand, I hadn’t prepared myself for this unexpected twist which to my surprise turned out to be the most life changing twist of my entire life. I had just turned 19 when the lockdown system was laid down. I knew that this year is not going to be an easy one (none of my years were easy, let’s be mfkn honest there!). However as someone who loves to spend most of her times staying in, this system didn’t baffle me much. Until it went on for months, where it started to bother me to the levels where I took some actions which were quite opposite to my original character. It felt like I gave birth to whole new personality, a personality that was almost “charmingly self-sabotaging”. Charming because it taught me things that helped to be a better version of myself which you guys are witnessing in the...

Acceptance

treated myself like trash for years all I could reach out were blocked ears my mind had become mushy all thoughts I had were gushy I was afraid of what people might think but if I disappear, they might forget me in a blink no one could help except for myself all I had to do is accept myself so, I slowly rose up on my tinsel toes with lil anger & love pent up in my nose assured myself that it's okay to be slow as long as I go with the flow and not set myself low there will be obstacles on the way but with a bolt mind I will get away fighting through the storm I ran not letting my progress go bland reminded myself to be tolerant since this journey is for my betterment not going to stop till I die every day is a new hassle & a new try my body was meant to be divine so, I'm going to love myself & let it shine!

Connections

A wise man once said “in this terrifying world, all we have are the connections we make”. Are connections really that important? As humans, we tend to seek validation for our existence through every aspects of life. One of the aspects being “connections”. Social media has brainwashed the minds of the younger generation into believing that a person is a nobody if he/she/they has no connections in real/virtual life. They weigh the value of the person by the number of people they have on the “followers” list. This thinking has messed up big time with the mental health of our generation. It has severely damaged the person’s self-esteem & the power to voice out, even when they need some major help. They get judged for having no friends or for not being “popular” enough in the peer circles. Looking past the person’s inner values & qualities. We no longer assess a person for who they are but for what they possess. The only way to change this is by bringing changes in our mindset ...